So.. Here I am.
Sitting with a blank stare and dizzy head.
There's so many things going on right now.
Why can't I just pick something and be decisive? I'm supposed to know what I want. I don't want to be a burden to anyone with my own indecisiveness..
 Let's try and list a couple thoughts out.

Thought #1:
  He is my other half. At least, that's what I've said countless times over the past 2 years. We've been through so many things. He's been my shoulder to cry on whenever I felt I couldn't stand on my own. He's been the one I would talk to for hours on end. He's gotten to know so many sides of me that I was scared to even show, but is there still other sides he doesn't know? I've let him see every inch of me, and he's accepted all of me. Flaws and all. He is kind, caring, compassionate, dedicated, inspiring, and so much more. In many ways, I aspire to be like him. He has always been perfect to me.
So, why am I having these other thoughts..?

Thought #2:
The other is so very charming. I don't know why or how I let it get to me, but it did. He's made me feel butterflies that I shouldn't. Whenever we have those small moments of just looking at each other, I start to feel something, and it feels right, but I panic at the same time. I've constantly told myself that it was just nostalgia. Being reunited with him was so refreshing, since we had to end our friendship at such a young and ignorant age (over something ridiculous). Being able to talk with him and actually be around him again made me feel very happy and nostalgic. It brought back so many memories and old feelings. I might just want to hold onto these feelings because I longed for him a long time ago.. But, there's so much I want to learn about him and I really like him for who he is at the moment. However, there are some parts of him I feel that have not been explored yet.. Nor do I know if I want to see the other sides of him.. Maybe he's just my outlet to get rid of loneliness..
Thee are some genuine feelings though...

These two main thoughts keep clashing and creating other small frantic thoughts. They're all bouncing around in my mind.
So much chaos in one head..